I want to quit my job?

When she starts asking you to be more outgoing next time just say no and tell her this isn't working out for you. She might back off. You likely will get over this I was that way for years but now I can fake being outgoing with small talk. Really I am still very introverted but I am able to be friendly with people. Try talking about sports or music with people. Other people will feel they are bonding with you even though you are not connecting with them in anyway. That works really well once you practice it. Are you really shy or do you despise people and really not want to make friends because you do not trust them? I am thinking you don't want to let people in due to trust issues. Nothing wrong with that people are not trustworthy. In any case I am pulling for you we are all in this together.